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It has come to an end .
Yeaa (:
Unveiling My Presence
Alright !
I feel better now .
I've soul searched myself deep and thoroughly .
I won't be a damn good person, but i'll be a better person .
One thing's for sure: I have understood myself way better than I have ever did .
I feel sure of myself now .. Steady .
I feel .. confident ;D
Knowing what you want gives you a sense of direction in life .
See, it only gives you a sense of direction .
Sense .
But this is life; Anything will happen .
So what do I want ?
I wanna build altruistic relationships with people . I wanna build relationships with people that last .
I've already lost so many people from my life .. of which i've been trying to wade into re-establishing rapport with them .
I can only put in so much effort though, because it takes two hands to clap .
I have a whole bunch of friends who doesn't seem pleased to see, talk, facebook message or even text message me .
Ahahaa, it's disheartening .
They shouldn't even be called 'Friends' for that matter !
Hmm .. it's okay . I'll be there for them if they need me ;)
(The reason why I say that is because I know none of them will ever do so and approach me .. hahaha !)
Man, I have a future ahead of me .
I shouldn't let such people pull my spirits down .
The world is fucking vast !
I'm full of love, and i'm all ready to give them out .
Take my hand, for a touch turns strangers to friends (:
Romantic love .
I've been eyeing this girl for like over a year already .
She gave me hopes .
She crushed my hopes .
So, i'm confused .
Does she likes me or not ?
Because at this point of time, i'm fucking sure I love her .
Even though she hardly has time for me, i'll wait for the day whereby she will be free to meet me .
I wanna tell her how I feel about her .
Hold her hand ..
Look into her eyes ..
With a heart oh-so sincere .
I need to know how she feels about me too .
I don't want a one-sided love story .. hahaa, shit ain't never gonna work that way . I'm just being realistic .
So if she feels the same way towards me too, I hope we could be in a relationship .
Otherwise .. I'll find someone else .
I really need to know, because we've been hanging for so long now . I can't live like that .
Yea, i'd be disheartened if she doesn't want to be in a romantic relationship with me ..
But that'd be alright . At least I will be able to finally move on .
Yea, girl . I'll be moving on .
Then, you might disappear from my life . You don't seem interested to be friends with me in the first place .
I love you . That's the reason why i've been keeping myself single and trying to make things happen between us and constantly work something out .
You just love to think negatively regarding most things between us, huh ? Haiyo . Hahaha .
I'm not dissing or degrading you, so don't think otherwise .
I'm wearing out, and I know when to quit .
But I hope you'll perhaps treat me At Least more like a friend in the future .. Remember, you have a place in my heart .
You know how i'd reciprocate, dear girl (:
"I can't give you anything you'd want .
I'm no Justin Bieber .
Sorry .
I can only give you Shahrul Andean (: "
This moment onwards, Life will be different .
Yeaa, can't believe it now that in about 2-3 weeks from now,
i'll start my Polytechnic education .
I feel nervous .
I feel excited .
I don't know what to feel !
Hahaha !
I feel rejuvenated now . I feel the energy surging through my body .
I wanna do one thing that I regretted not doing for my last year of Secondary school .
Not making the best out of my final year ..
That, only I know . Hahaa .
Polytechnic will be the last time i'll have those classmates people before I serve National Service .
Lets go, Shahrul ;D
In terms on meeting people, I feel more confident to talk to them .
I've accustomised myself into speaking fluent and good English coherently with proper articulation and enunciation .
Of course, it's a learning process for me .
But i'm resolute in my belief that I will be able to inculcate such a manner of communicating naturally .
Of course, i've learnt to speak 'different languages to different groups of people' .. if you know what I mean .
Hahahahaa !
In terms of looks, I believe i've become more handsome .
I'v learnt how to smile (:
I wanna spread joy, and smiling is just a part of the plan .
I love my style and choice of clothings .
Long sleeved .. ^_^
Forget stereotypes or fashions; I've got my own style ;)
(Of course, there are only so many types of apparels in this world . I can always be stereotyped to a specific fashion sense)
I'm an empathetic person .
I can easily connect with anyone .
Of course, the other party must allow me to feel them .
Already there are many Seemingly apathetic souls who just doesn't want any offerings from people like me ..
Or perhaps, they just don't like me or are not comfortable with me .
Oh well, too bad for them .
Hahahaa .
Honestly, I will be slightly affected by people's judgements of me .
Like for instance, one of the most common one:
I'm just confident, but people perceive me as arrogant .
What the fuckkkkk, there's no way to please people .
But fuck them, it ain't about pleasing everybody .
^_^
I procrastinate .
I know I still will in the future .
Ahahaa .
But I won't wait as long .
I will make my own opportunities .
It finally bears meaning to me now .
^_^
25 days worth of life ..
This is my 25 To Life .
This would be a longer post if I were to continue ..
I think i'll cease the typing here .
Alright .
I'm a better person now .
But i'll always strive to be an even better person in the years to come (:
One important quality I need to always possess; Humbleness and Modesty .
Okay, those are two qualities .
But they're similar in context .
Kayyy !
This blog will no more be private .
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